should it carry a risk
of being strong?
Woke up t my mum squeezing herself beside me,
and followed by munching noises;
;)
So at 2.15pm, i was already at Boarders waiting for Haris.
He made me walk to centerpoint where he could have actually told me t just meet him there.
remind me again, why do i have such a "nice" friend?
So its a more of Faiz-needs-t-get-things-done-Haris-willing-t-follow DAY!
since first part of the day , i was nice enuff to follow him.
So at centerpoint , met 2 orginisers
then Taka t get stuff from sister-in-law's sis.
Then Lunch + Breakfast
then boarders
then esplanade
then HOME!
When 4 become 1 ,
when gone meets far gone and when they met gone for good;
the flour isn what we want ;
yet the mixers carn do anything...........
& is good t hear from Jiv ;)
nyhehehe!
Welcome back JIv!
I want to play SMACKING with oscar!
* hops around *
Shall go clean Tiku&Dopey's water tank ; give some food ;
& i am all set to watch GREY'S ANATOMY S5EP13
\m/!
I'm living in the moment
I look around I can't believe the love I see.
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is my now.
This is my now.
i flew away@ 12:34 AM
when all the muscle tangle up;
do you ask for help,
or do u just breath in...
ON THE 15th JAN ; BAY TURNS 18 YO!
SO HAPPY 18 BIRTHDAY TO YOU AMELIA BAYYYYY!
DUN PARTY TILL YOU DROP AHHH~
HAHHAH! I KNOW U R CAPABLE OF THAT ! NYEHEHEH!
So, sometime last week, at about 3am
while i was still awake....
i heard a different kind of noise coming from the cage....
i didn care, but as it gets really really scary.....
i decided t peep inside the cage,
& what i saw was a thumb thingy, like moving.....
i got shocked and started t ponder what on earth is in the cage
and to my horror, ITS A BABY HAMSTER!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~
I have ppl telling me t quickly seperate the baby,
and with my very own panick attack, i just did it w/o weighting the pro's and con's
but when zj helped me research and i did my part ,
it says that, you shuldn touch the baby at all... Just let it be...
it still needs warm and the mummy's milk and bla bla bla....
sorry lil oneee... :(
i had no choice but t put it back cause if i let it be out, i din have any sort of milk for it
and the lil one need its mummy rytee...
so sorry lil one :(
he/she was really really cuteee!
i played with it for like a mere 3mins...
:'(
and the next morning, it was gonnneeee
So the parents dun even think its a BIG THING to have baby and
just continue playing with each other ;
the cage were so stinko that my mum blasted and say " you r so going t wash it NOW"
:(
=+=
This week , i shall call it , killer week.
Why, because all of us were rushing and trying to figure out
how on earth t gather informations on BSPA CaseStudy.
Don , Intan , Jiemin , Junyu , Jiyong , Qingwang and i stayed back to do
the damn case study on Thur .
On top of that, school timming have been sooo cruel....
Monday i reached school like at 8.50am for some opening when later it was said that
the event shuld be on Tue morning and not Monday morning... so great..
and since is a mon, Baracuda ended at 11pm....
Tuesday on the other hand started at 9am all the way to 7pm since we had t stayed back for esa lab...
Wednesday, there wasn any French class since it was e-learning week.. So Intan and i came t shool for bull shits ah~ Had t do a lot of assignment bla bla And we attended French talk just because attendence earn us 2-5 marks? I think i need it badly. And Baracuda ended like 10 pluss
Thursday , well stayed back for project and again 10pm there......
Friday start as early as 8am! wad the backside!
And i have always say that ppl who come t school on Saturdays and goes t the lib are those who doesn have life ! But check out on Saturday! My whole afternoon + evening was being there and doing research and bla bla :/ ouh goshhh~
:'(((((((((((((((((((((
Next week, its just going to get worst because now, is MI Project!
Have t built this and that , program dun noe what, wire this and that , and WHAT?
who? Where?
I need at least 1 hr of good shoulder massage ! i really need ! my whole shoulder plus spine are aching ... Aching so bad that i really wish i am at Batam for some massaging treatment! dam SHIT! Now , all i can think off are people like Norain or the poly forum friend who takes massaging courses and knows which points t concentrate and omgggg~
Anyone wanna helpppp :(((
And we all will say THANK YOU CHINESE for the 2 extra holiday days! It really helps!
And we all will now say SHUKUR~ ( even if you dun know whats that, well its a gd mly word, just say or try to say it)
PS: I dun even think i spell the word correctly ah~ HAAHA
Sometimes in life you feel the fight is over
,And it seems as though the writing's on the wall,
Superstar you finally made it,
But once your picture becomes tainted,
It's what they call,
The rise and fall
i flew away@ 2:05 AM
even the surroundings
were not helping at all.
I supported the Jerald Fund Society - child for the retard
( if u notice there are no 's' so which means he is the only one in that society)
He thinks saussages+mountains of pineapples goes well together
I also bought sweets from aud's stall!
so we all headed back to school by 4+
Rest for awhile.
At the school bus stop, i saw a cute insect!
A carterpillar!
sssooooo cuteeee you knoww!
Bernette+Ahmad+Alywin thinks that i am nut case
but after i stop playing with it,
they went t play with it!/
So anyways,
Fazwan and i went to town to accompany Alywin to get his shoe
but we stopped by Taka to watch rp playing!
So after which , faz and i had to go off!
Soooorryy alywin!
Bused down to ceenatown!
to meet yanqi+dw+Jo+Aud !
Jolene killed me by giving me wrong directions!
that one, need a punch i tell you!
So after they had their dinner,
we went t durian stall to have a round of durian!
Since i brave through porks , well yq brave thorugh durians yo!
nyeheh!
Walked throught the streets , bought mango+chocolate muachi!
As usual!
Its like my rountine once a year !
Ha!
And the crowd were dammmm bad please! at certain points only luhh.
We actually witnessed 2 women screaming at each other cause one blame the other one for pushing blablabla!
And in the midst of the crowrd , omgnesss
my pdpr lect nudge me and said hiee!
of all ppl ; of all places
cool stuff ahh~
reached home like by 12 there
so yeappppp.
Well today , i slept for 14 hours!
i would give up on i dun know what just t get another 14hours !
:/
After which i cabbed down t tangling mall
and cabbed back home soon after.
;))
I figured out about something ,
i dun know how true , not till friday.
buddy gave me a closure to it.
so now, i dun even noe how t act upon it.
i want reasons , i want explanations.
this add t my bullshit list, now how long is my list going t go on.
you mark your fullstop like this, how fucking coward can you be, really
such a fucking loser, so born loser.
if 6yrs meant anything, you should come clean or deal with it.
the best part of the period,
i am the bad guy , well u r just the good guy i supposed.
u r such a fucking coward that i really so disgusted by you.
so very much disgusted by you.
i haven mark my fullstop,
not now, cause now its not the time yet.
just wait.
everything i have ever believe,
everything that i have ever keep close to me
cherished to the point that nothing would ever take it away,
are telling me that there's no such thing in life, in this world.
that what you have, is just a reflection ;
segments of picture are tearing itself , slowly and it comes t the point
where i know, where i can feel , it would be gone.
just prove me wrong, its getting mentally painful.
Now that I know what I'm without
you can't just leave me.
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life.
i flew away@ 11:19 PM
Show that you're scared like me;
If you could only see in the mirror
what I see.
Another friday , which means 2 wks of school already over.
But there are so many things which are not over.
eveyrthing feels so hanging, so draining.
i think this week, i talked too much , repeat things too much,
curse too much and i think words like
-what the fuck / fuck you / cheebye are already part of my constant english words used.
but most of these words derserve t be said from me, so suck it up alryte.
but if i say it and follwed by my smile / giggle / laughter means i dun mean it u fart tart!
haha~
School have been more than just sucking your brain cells.
And i dun know the word t explain whats more than sucking up brain cells.
There is still BSPA casestudy to doooooo~
how dragggggyy can this be.
And there were frech test on wednesday.
Well, i sit at a place where what i really need to do is exercise my neck
and write it on my paper.
Conclusion, French is beyond boring!
I wonder why on earth junmei still going for lesons for 2 yrs already! HAHA!
Also, this week, i only survive on 2-3 hours of sleep.
i swear waking up part was so ardous.
i cannot wake up / i really really cannot open my eyes!
i wasted 7X5=35$ on just taxi fare this wk!
i need t stop this man!
AGain, thanks t all my morning callers!
you know who you areee!
There were a lot of admin stuff t be done by today as well.
So much so, i have t rush rush rush.....
if i conclude that 2008 have serve as a good year for me,
i swear 2009 have been the total opposite from that.
and you know whats the best part,
2009 is just starting, so which means,
the bullshits are just starting ,
and i am already on the way to giving up.
On a lighter note,
one night when my lovelies are having their peaceful moments;
i cannot stand at the fact that they are beyonddd cute!
i can really oberved them for more than 1hr and still be amazed the next hour.
harh!
;)
& the cutest part is that my mum and dad have been talking
to them a lot lately esp my mum!
HAHAH!
i wasn even around when they do these things !
and at times, i peep into my room and there u go, i saw my mum having a one sided
conversation with them!
HAHA! (;
MEET TIKU! (:
MEET DOPEY! (;
i flew away@ 10:39 PM
Well, today will be his last day walking into the band room before giving his life t the
nations! bleak!
In any case, take good care jiv!
See u sooooonnn! ;)
& finally i heard the boys laughing and enjoying 1 or 2 rounds of scoccer
(;
French was really blardddyyy screwedddd.
the more i think abt it, the more i hate the whole idea of doing french.
adding to the hatred, there are tom , dick and harry.
which constantly makes my eyes roll non stop .
urgh~
8/01/2009 - 9/01/2009
2 days of non stop running around the school ,
was all because of Ngee Ann Open House.
So basically, having open house on Thur and Fri spells tiring because
the 2 days are packed with a hell lot of prcticals. And there was no escape to this.
Hence, the running around from the performance place back t class and then be
and the performance place and then back to class.
special thanks to penguin , since she is there t helped me t somewhat
reduced my burden. Thank you very much!
;)
now u can stop rolling your eyes ahh~
10/01/2009
I woke up as early as 7am for the king in the house.
So, i followed dad for his full checkup.
Which took the whole morning & afternoon , mind you.
& later , in the evening till late was in town
good spend night.
;)
=+=
And today, spend the whole evening till late night again
yet in town.
;)
its just cool like dat~
& when i came back home,
this is what my dereast brother did to my poor tiger!
i got a shocked of my life and i carn help but t burst out into loud laughter man!
my brother who is 37 yrs of age is doing this, omg!!
hahah~
'Cause every breath that you will take
When you are sitting next to me
Will bring life into my deepest hopes,
i flew away@ 9:26 PM
couldn't help;
First day of school was pure shittt;
Imaginge i still need t buy part 2 of my textbooks.
& I WANT MY CHICKEN RICE STALL BACKKKK IN CANTEEN 1!!!
:(((((
I miss the uncle and aunty (husband&wife)
& i miss how the way they welcome me t their stall with BIG BIG SMILE!
:(((
I have lots of stuff to doooo
a lot of emails to replyyy
but fucking hotmail thinks is cool t not function for like 1 week already!
seriously!
WAHHH! freakingg annoyinggg!
urgghhhhhhh!
& up till now , my laptop cannot stop updating!
Like when i want t switch off
- updates 1 of 27
then when i switch on and off again
-updates 1 of 37
this is freakkyyy
:/
how moronic ; how moronic
everything like 1 lump of cyst;
swear man!
Ouh, tdy haris faz and i were interviewed by Berita Harian
Malay newspaper!
then a short photo takingg
go checkk ouuutt iff u wannttttt!!!
I feel like if I try,
I could fly away right now.
All because
I've finally found my smile.
i flew away@ 2:03 AM
there's always
a dead end;
I end my last day of my 3 weeks of holiday
with spending time with my parents;
SPARTAN IS HOMMEEE!
Now i really have the phobia of using SPARTAN!
:/
please, dun spoil againnnn~
Random : i am waiting for Prison Break Season 4esp17
: I am waiting for Heroes Season 4
: I am waiting for Grey Anatomy Season5esp11
DAM LONGG ALREADYYYYY!!!!
I DO NOT WANT TO GO SCHOOL ;
I REALLY REALLY DUN WANT TO GO T SCHOOL;
I STILL WANT T STAY AT HOME
AND HAVE MY BEAUTY SLEEP!!!
I DO NOT WANT TO HOLD A PEN / PENCIL
I DO NOT WANT TO GO SCHOOL.
ppft:/
If one is not enough
a garden it shall be;
i flew away@ 1:42 AM
have its own
weakness;
2/1/09
Went to watch Bedtime Stories!!!!
Yay!
Really good movie to watch!
;)
You can laugh laugh till you forget to eat your popcorns!
HEE HEE!
After which walk around Cathay ;
& had the best stuff for early dinner!
MEE SUA with XXL CHICKEN!
noww i am craving for itt!
:/
Soon Explora and i went over to esplanade to have 2nd dinner with
Jolene and yanqi.
And later Explora had to go off earlier cause she is having 3rd dinner with her familyy
So, the rest of us waited for zi jing t arrive!
which was like 11.30pm there when we finally saw her!
We went to DXO Bar to chill.
Had Smirnoff Tower (2L) - Strawberry flavour!
And the songs that filled the air was good!
Our first meet up for 2009!
BOTTOMS UP!
3/1/08
I was at a place where it was filled with
tons of ang mohs
& with me , i had the best book to get me excited for the next 4 hours or so
and beside me,
well, i have a peaceful yet adorable face to look at!
WELL HELLO PEOPLE;
Great Afternoon & Evening!
I went home t re-fresh
And later at around 11pm, went to meet Penguin ; D sq + bf at ang mo kio
for supper!
We went jalan kayu!
D sq , again rush me to order food,
up till now, i still dun get why is there a need to rush to order food?
:/
So anyway it was indeed an enjoyable time spent
sorry for all the chokes that i have caused
i know , its okie! HAHA!
Thank peeps!
;))
I love your eyes, those twinkling eyes
They seem to speak of a thousand words
Make me wonder each time I stare
i flew away@ 12:02 AM
things still need help
t move
At 6.30Am;
i was at boat quay bridge talking to shuk
At 7.30 Am;
i started to curse gayboy cause
its just fun like dat!
Gayboy was high on bottles of chivas!
At 8.30Am
I utter my first " FUCK YOU"
to shuk
At 9.30Am
Shuk utter her first " FUCK YOU"
and at 10.30AM
we ended up waiting for this time t scold each other
harh!
So, my first morning breakfast was nasi lemak
@ bk house
its really good!
& shuk really cannot shuz up abt every move we make
like die die must continue it with " see, this is our first bla bla of 2009"
OMGGGG!
and she make me walked from boat quay to town
in circles mind you!
-_-"
I only manage to reach home like 12noon!
Slept like 30min later
DING DONG!
Wake up only at 9pm!
cool kid rytee!
I couldn stand the silent in my room and i see that the wheels not even moving.
i couldn take it so i decided t clean the cage and put them both together.
they played with each other....
for now, they r bff!
When most people post good stuff on this very day
i shall be not most people.
& look into reality
Frankly,
faiz soooooo not looking forward for 2009!
like why ah~
-meaning once school reopen, exam papers will be returned.
-It doesn help when you get infos like " a lot from H1 fail" -_-"
-So many things left unsettled in 08 that you carn help but t bring it into 09.
-when people say throw all the bad stuff in 2008 away, are u serious man?
then why r these ppl still thinking about it??
- Because i smell sooo many shits coming right up!
wink wink!
For now, 1st day of new year
lost its traditions.
like how a banner beats ball rolling
just cause we all say amen to, " ouh- i- carn- do- it- now"
for that,
with my pride
i am giving you
a flying F.
You don't have to promise me
the moon or stars...
just promise that you will
stand under them with me
i flew away@ 5:52 AM