my stomach is so bloated ...had a wide spread today... yummy yummy....weLL today watch FLIGHT PLAN!! sosososososos NICE!! good!! thumbs up!!! than stILL couldn sleep so went on to the next movie which is MR. and MRS SMITH...FAN-TAS-TICso funny plus actions ...juz my kinda movie...i LOVE it.. take note i was watching this at 4am... than feLL asleep ...woke up ard 2++ continue with my movie marathoon... watch hide and seek...." come out come out whereever u are" not bad LA... but i stILL love flight plan and MR&MRS SMITH... 2 thumbs up.... thats aLL i have been doing the whole day.... and later gonna watch THE MAID or mabye some other movies...oh wait! shit lA...tmr have scHOOL... now i can't stay up late..later cannot wake up and walup wiLL never reach scHOOl...



I WANNA WISH ALL THE BEST TO THOSE TAKIN O LEVEL MOTHER TONGUE TOMORROW. dun panik...to u, u told me u are sick and very stress due to the O's....wad rubbihs is this when i got to noe u went TO WORK! very funny..after work u faLL sick!!! and than scare to go see the doc why cause scare that the doc wiLL not alLow u take ur exam...itchy leg itchy butt rytee...go scratch ur own self.. better stiLL forgot to bring ur notes to ur grandma hse...i feeL like shaving u bold and skin u alive..than put u into a boiling pot and stir stir u OK... oh weLL i wiLL see wad u got later than....[",]....for the rest JI YOU!!

I WANT MY DRUMS!!!!!!

woke up

got ready

meet up with sheery and zj at fish&cold

went wif them to some modeling agent

meet up wif smss girls

finish with their thing

meet up with marx and fabus ( ehem ehem) ---grins...

went to ps to eat BUT i din eat WHY cause i am fasting!!

than went to pradise centre

searching for jaming place

found but cost $16 per hr

decided to go to serangoon like we planned but too late

so we end up in the arcade

while playing fabus left

soon later we went off to cine

waited tiLL 5.30pm

zj left for home

me,sherry&marx went to watch movie

DOOM" ( featuring the rock who is the bad guy)

good show..nice show...i like....MUZ WATCH!

went in w/o worrie cause i am legal since i am 16 (NC16)

movie finish

went to find place to eat dinner. FINALLY i can break my fast...

decided on pastamania.

ordered chicken crem pasta.nice nice..

after than went wak walk ard town

accompany sherry to top up

and we home sweet home

IN CONCLUSION : i din get to do wad i have been dying to do apart from watching movie... i am terrible sad.... (double dose)... thats why the day was boring....wth la... next time shaLL not plan things...this always happen.. haiz... onli my dear zj understands..thank her 4 that..but she simply have problem with me..love banging on me.... non-stop ok!

i kept thinking abt wad u say to me......

and guess wad?........................................

it breaks even further..............................

do u care?do u bother?do u understand?

i am so bored... how come nobody is here to entertain meeeee... weLL din go to schOOl today...why cause i couldn wake up... mum woke me up several times but to no avail...she gave up....than came dad taking over her job...but he was a lousy poker la..he said this to me " since u refuse to get up no need to go to schOOl la..i wilL write u the absent letter" with that comforting words i went into deep sleep...hahaa!! but nono ppl wiLL calL me aya! stiLL with that i refuse to move any inch ...and finally woke up at 3.30pm haha!! how wonderful is that...restore my energy for tomorrow....yeppie!! than alL of a sudden mum stomp in..thought wad la..she hand me my phone bilLL ... the letter i have been waiting for... i almost faint ok! all i can say my wallet is going to have a BIG hole... why i even gave my mum the idea that i wiLL pay i biLL ....why!!! now i have to pay them... smart...simply smart.... currently chatting wif syelia and learning more abt which ever country she is now... sound kewl to be there thou... and food there are so nice BUT expensive..1 plate of nasi lemak is 7 sing dollar... ahhh...speaking of which i stiLL have like 30 mins left to break my fast... my stomach is goin under depression...i am hungry!!! so so hungry!!! fasting mth is going to end soon...but its like so slow..to reach the final end.... am jealous wif gracina...she can learn driving at the age of 19!!! wth! chee... rubbish la...i can onli start learning at the age of 21...i think dats too old to start learning....dam la...why muz they change this pethetic rule... chee...
stiLL have like 20 mins more before i can eatttt...i am smelling the aroma... oh weLLL shall stop here..byebye...

go for it and overtake it.......

weLL weLL blog tiime..... schoOl was OK todaay cause most of the teachers din come in to class..which is good given that i need to use all that time to sleep...i think i have sleeping problem...it seem any amount of sleep given to me is juz not enuff....WHY!! i juz wondering why..it's always that durin mly i wiLL faLL asleep.. it has been a week and time agin i fall asleep during her lesson..i think she put a charm on me LA.... than after schOOl i waited for shaza like god noes how long....and i had to follow her to her dentaL...aunt's place...not bad argh..her aunt has her own dental both at jurong and bukit batok while her husband have a clicnic rytee opposite her shop ..how nice.. than sumthin happen... she accidentely push 1 bicycle...and the next thing she noes.. ALL 3 bcycle felL like domino...dam embarasseing LA..everyone look at us..and best part she had to puLL me and everyone noes she is my frined...than she puLL me to ran wif her ...how smart is that! ahaha! i cannot stop lauhing i!!! this is wad i caLL my best friend...haha!! than went to buy FOOD! and went home sweet home...

u use that special key to unlock the feeling of love ,

from my solidified heart,

causing it to skip each time i see you

[tigress] [",]

SMSS IDIOL HERE I COME...

weLL i am rather calm now..things are finally back to where it was.. phew... half the time i was so feeling screw up... cause its getting nearer and nearer..lesson was boring except antonio! he was super duper good today...for the 1st time i enjoy his lesson...there was'n any stress... juz a melody lesson...thats wad i felt ....wif the cold wether today itt makes things even betteri feel asleep during eng....who wouldn..even zj too..she keep groning...and hope she is fine.she was havin crams..and despite that she doesnwant to go home ....ALL BECAUSE OF ME!! I LOVE HER LA..my honey!! i feel guity but she made her standwho am i to stoop her...while suaty, she was busying msgin LA..shhit her....if onli i have someone to msg every 1min..haha!during chem....ms lee had to teach both 4/7 & 4/8..and she was rather angry and strated scolding us...we were too noisy... and guess was?? i feel asleep !!!! can u imagine..someone scolding u, u fell asleep?? sheereen was like " faiz u sleeping argh??!! haha! and she started to tickle me..no effects...infatc it make me wanna sleep even more... 45 minsto the idiol thingy...urgh! i stiLL blame waty for writting my name! got a palayer..and started to pratice ...feeling veryvery very very very scare!!! swear!! shu was calling me a woodblock! chee! than the clock strike 2 ( ding dong din dong, ding ding, ding dong)the smss idiol was held in the hub..how pethtic was that? and it was mostly the sec 1 and 2... my legs are wobbly as i stepinto the hub...everyone ask me to kewl down..but how to rytee..if u noe u are gonna perfrom? huh?i was griping on amy.. and i even ask her to say a word of prayer! that really tickels me..so funnY!but the funny part is that..her face was ALL red and not me..although i was the one so scare LA.. haha!tomato girl. and we had to draw lots.... and lucky 4 me...our perfromances was NO.5... phew..juz the no. i wanted... altogether there were 7 performancesand this is the song for our duet wif me and waty.....

"Tilt Ya Head Back"

(feat. Christina Aguilera)

Yeah, that's tight (uh)

Check it, drop the drum right (hmmm..yeah)

Put some horns in it..woo! (that's right)

Do it again (yeah yeah, ha oooh oooh alright, ha)

Give her what she want, give her what she want uh [repeat]

[Verse 1: Xtina]I

see you lookin', uh

like what you see?

Boy, now don’t be shy and look at her face in opportunity

[Nelly (Xtina):]

She’s right ya know (uh uh),

she's right (ah)

Man, she's right ya know (uh uh), she's right (ow!)

You stand there looking at me (at me)

I stand herre looking at you girl (at you boy)

You know exactly what's on my mind (yeah yeah)

[Xtina (Nelly):]

It’s just so easy to see (to see)

You came here looking for me (but uh uh)

But I don’t do that type of thing all the time, yeah

(You want me to)

Come here boyI got a little something for ya(You got a little bit, can I get a little bit? yeah yeah)

And I don’t know (I don't know what it is but I just want to get to know ya, alright alright..yeah yeah)

[Chorus:]

I need to daaaaaance

(Tilt ya head back, take ya head back)

All night(

Bring it back up slowly, that's right)

I need ya to daaaaaance

(Tilt ya head back, take ya head back)

All night

(Bring it back up slowly, that's right)

[Verse 2: Nelly]

Now situations, girl

They often change

Sometimes for the good

Sometimes for the bad, but who’s to blame?

[Xtina (Nelly):]

He’s right ya know (uh uh), he's right (oh babygirl)

He's right ya know (uh uh), he's right, OW!

[Nelly (Xtina):]

You stand there looking at me (at me)

I stand herre looking at you girl (at you boy)

You know exactly what’s on my mind (yeah yeah)

[Xtina (Nelly):]

It’s just so easy to see (to see)

You came here looking for me (but uh uh)

But I don’t do that type of thing all the time, yeah

(You want me to)

Come here boyI got a little something for ya(You got a little bit, can I get a little bit? yeah yeah)

And I don’t know (I don't know what it is but I just want to get to know ya, alright alright..yeah yeah)

[Chorus:]

I need to daaaaaance

(Tilt ya head back, take ya head back)

All night(

Bring it back up slowly, that's right)

I need ya to daaaaaance

(Tilt ya head back, take ya head back)

All night

(Bring it back up slowly, that's right)

(Everybody says)

Hustle for me, hustle (hustle)

Hustle for me, hustle (hustle)

Hustle for me, hustle (hustle)

Hustle for me, yeah

[Verse 3: Xtina]

So, you got some nerve thinking you’re so

I got a little bit of that

A little bit of this

A little bit of backWith a little bit of *beep*

[Nelly (Xtina):]

You stand there looking at me (at me)

I stand herre looking at you girl (at you boy)

You know exactly what’s on my mind (yeah yeah)

[Xtina (Nelly):]

It’s just so easy to see (to see)

You came here looking for me (but uh uh)

But I don’t do that type of thing all the tiiiiiiiiiiiime

(You want me to)

Come here boyI got a little something for ya

(You got a little bit, can I get a little bit? yeah yeah)

And I don’t know (I don't know what it is but I just want to get to know ya, alright alright..yeah yeah)

[Chorus:]

I need to daaaaaance

(Tilt ya head back, take ya head back)

All night

(Bring it back up slowly, that's right)

I need ya to daaaaaance

(Tilt ya head back, take ya head back)

All night

(Bring it back up slowly, that's right)

Hey! (Give her what she want, give her what she want uh) [repeat 'til end]

oooohooooh, oooh yea, ha!Oh Nelly!

FAIZ , FAIZ you make me so sweaty baby

yeayeayeayeayeayea OH!

ITS OVER!!! haha i felt so happy OK! this means i can have a a gd nite sleep already...it has been 1 week since i had a good nite sleep..wif all the memorising , creating steps, print lyris..search for suitable songs.. burn the song... alL that in less than 1 week..OH WELL ITS OVER.. and than they call out the contestent...and ppl have to vote.. but waty and idin expect to get A FULL HOUSE VOTE! ours was 60 votes...and one auntiee came to me and say " AYA! why u and waty join? confirm win rytee...? --smile-- she too voted for us but it was not counted LA..haha!and we won $50 taka voucher..and we had to do an encore...cause they want it..i refuse but this waty insisted! toot LA! tired already.. with that i wanna personally thankz this ppl that came to support us namely...

suaty , fadhilah, karmen, shu wen ( hey U stop poking on my fats), kimin ( u tOO stop ur pincing! pain!) , zj, sherry, sabrina,melissa, amy, hazlyn ( u today very SOFT HOR) ,shanam, adela, gamar, bavani and also to those voted us..as in me and waty...haha! after which went hm wif amy... home sweet home..bed sweet bed...pillow sweet pillow...

MY STOMACH IS GOING UNDER DEPRESSION W/O FOOD....1 week to end the fatsing mth!!thats all for today..byebye...

now can u see SABRINA??? haha!

i feel like my days are numbered....i am just sooooo scare....tmr the day....where i feeL like running away from my lyfe..wad have i done.... urgh!!!! i am gonna maluate myself LA....i bet ppl wiLL be throwing "tomatoes to me...instead of flower" so today stay back in schOOl tiLL 6+++ and i am juz tired..gosh...my mind are juz too occupy with stuff.... stuff i thought had gone...but nono...u have to bring it up again... DAM U! like i say i have better taste... and ur taste not my kind...screw U... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! i have the biggest ulcer in my mouth LA!! freakin pain!! it seem dat i cannot even eat properly....pain!! ouch! i think everyone in class noes..csue i keep complaining...haha! sorry but its juz too pain to endure alone...




see how i am suffering..... despite the laughter...i am suffering......














why why why why why why......
when when when when......












my heart is sinking each day , each min , each sec, aLL i can do now is to stare at ur no. and somewhat it seem redundant cause i am juz to afraid to call u up.... but i really want to.... but how to.....

wad a day today....waty came over to my hse..we had lots and lots of fun...laugh laugh... my stomach was in a serius pain today..i think is gastric...i dun usually get that..seldom..but today was so the worst..and i couldn eat med or anything of that sort cause i din wanna break my fast...i was suffering in silence in class...actually not dat silence since my face gave it away...and now after taking food it stiLL hurts here and there..it feels like my stomach burps..inner burps..well back to wad happen in my hse..me and waty were deciding on stuff..and after like 1hr we finally decided wad to do.. than in the middle of a discussion, we were talking yah takling...all of a sudden she strip open her Uniform..like litterally pull the zip down...i frozze 4 a moment..and in my mind i was like " eh dude wad zzup"?? hahaha! and we burst out laughing like 5 mins i guess...according to her, she thought she was at home LA..so yah..but i think she is trying to seduce mee..haha! althought little things happen here and there, we stiLL had fun!! she make me 4get abt my stomach 4 awhile..haha! nice nice...








i noe there shuld not be secrect between us, and u want me to let u into my world...but i notice each time i do that, it seem that i will bring up the feelings u had..and i noe its bad to have u think abt that feeling again..than how am i suppose to teLL u stuff..my personal stuff? how i felt? to whom i felt? casue in any ways...i will feeL guilty too..i think from today onwards...i shall cloze the doors to my world...if that really going to help u... i juz feel sorry for u LA...but if u need to telL me anytihng my ears are for u...i wiLL be here...

I WANT MY FOOODDDD!!!

parents went off to shop today...w/o me...actually mum say why not come....i say too tired..wanted to rest... 6 days of outing is just to good to be true..and i needa rest... my arm so numb and leg too cause of the badminton... back to my food...waiting for parents to be back wif my food...i am simply humgry la..eat milo ceral, oreo , cambrige soup...i want more food!! today was slacking day..and i still have humans and language to do...mly ...yucks! and i have been spending my whole day infront of the com! dats all i have to say fro today...and tmr is the start of another week of schOOl...urgh!!

if lovin her suffers u, why suffer urself...... i will be here to give u wad u deserve.... and dats a promise.....

burp! stomach so bloated now...had tom yam soup at 11 in da night!!! weekend is here agian...i need it so badly to cover up my lost hours...each time during recess i will just be sleeping and thankz to my derest zj and jol who will be my waker.... my eyes are so swollen now.. (according to na do dei) and she even thought that i have been crying for the past nite... (well onli my heart i guess)
school was boring which i like cause it means slacking time..after schooL was waiting for everyone to get ready to go to mel's hse. badminton time...we played like 2 hrs i think.. and sarah smash my pimples ...and i smash sabrina head and nt forgetting priscca...so much fun BUT i was to tired to continue playing...i think i have lost the grip.. die! and i dun even noe when cca starts for me..than we went up to mel's hse and played UNO STACKO and those who lost have to buy lunch! haha! sarah lost 4 all the game..than we proceed to playing UNO than heart attack...funny... than went back home...all of us was so tired and many things are occupying our minds today... well i am stiLL wif my PE shirt now..gonna bath..byebye












who willl u choose : a lover who does not love u or a friend who loves u more than a friend???? am bieng rather curious thou....any feedback...

341_Z.A.T.Y

just got back from aLL the fun i had wif my beloved WATY! she was being a tourist LA...can u imagine she has never seen parts of s'pore..and was being rather fascinated..i cannot stop laughing...first stop was lavender..she wanted to change her pasport photo if not she cannot leave singapore...quee was dam longgg LA..than we went to city hall and i bring her to candy empire... my poor waty almost fainted infront of the shop...she was touching every singel choclate in there..and i repeat she touch every singel choclate in there LA! since we are fasting, all she can do is stare and drool...poor kid...she even say she want to move hse to that shop...chee! dream on i bet they were throw her OUT la..so after admiring all the choclate, she still have not decided on wad to buy?? than i ask her so?? dun tell me argh u juz touch touch admireing all the choclate and than not going to buy anything...than she quicly go get something..finally she bought the wonka choc. so after all the excitment at candy empire, we went to raffles hospital to break our fast.... and than went straight home...well i bought flakes at candy empire but after taking one bite..i gave it to waty who had pester me to open it ...actually i like it BUT was dam fulll to even finsih dat choclate..and being a gd fren..i gave ot to her! she was jumping 4 joy LA.chicken la she stuff me wif all the food and because of that there was no empty room for my flakes...now i am so so so tired!!! still have compo to do!! die....gtg now...byebye...

i am down to niL now... i just couldn except my life ryte now.. why have things go against my will.my blood is flowing at a faster rate in each sec. till it drys uup..i will still be fighting thru to give u all ur needs...casue i noe i am capable of it.so all it takes is for u to let this happen... give way..

well lets kick off abt ystd...school was rather boring..i just could not get rid of the yawing...slept so late..onli got abt 3hrs of sleepthan have no choice but to wake up.... had mother tongue..and MY GOD! the teacher is so... boring..not say dat i hate her buti thought it was suppose to be conducting mly lesson, but instead she was talkin regarding religious..hash,haz,sheery and mealmost get kick out from the class cause we were caught talking...than the rest of the day went like forever...after school was suppose to go to denetel wif waty..we make our dentel appointment on the same day (purposely) than on the way to thedentel, mrs jean tan call my hp and scolded me casue she say it was very irresponsible of me and the rest to just ran awayfrom the meeting..WE DIN RUN AWAY! we din noe that there was a meeting cause rememeber we were havin N's ??than she went out saying stuff which was so hurtful to my ears...than she talked to waty ..and she too got hell from her..sayingthat she is a prfect and prefect shuld noe abt honesty...yada yada yada...after which we decided to make our way back tothe school...oh my la...we reached already at the dentel centre than went back to school..now we have to change our app.dates..than when we reached there, she apologise to us..saying that she din mean to say such thing on the fone.. well i forgive her la..cause i noe she is not that kind of person... sheereen also got scolding and i think becasue of that she refuse to go 4 the attch and withdraw herself..i am sad abt it...but who am i to stop her..than now its seem incomplete la w/o her.. why??wadever la... suit herself.. than after meeting stay in school to have a wonderful talk wif her...it has beeennn lonnggg butdat mama will come and spoil all the fun..shu shu shu... went back home..and change to meet darl wane to go to town..it has been like 3 days since we break our fast together... i love it! we went to cine to eat than bought bdae pressie for kak bedahand went to her hse which was like at 8pm!on a school night... her hse was at ang mo kio..but surprsingly we took like half an hr to reach ang mo kii from town..was my 1st time going to her place..nice place..lots of wind and it was a FULL MOON! the air smell nice..than i went to kak bedah's hse...god! funky sis she have men! althought have 2 kids, so spotting..and her sis give me the smeriked!i knew it LA! idiot wane...i told u i din wanna went in..but i had fun..by the time it was like10+pm.. than i still need to buy for sheery her party pops! ahhhhhh!! so yah went to cold storage to get it...i reached hm almost 12 i guess... TIRED!! i have tons of homeworl!! and to punished myself i stayed up till 3.30am to complete all the works..and again i onli had 3+hrs of sleep..






today i couldn wake up....and reached school LATE! which means i have to report myself for another 3 days!!!! ahhhh!!!i almost bang against ms kang when i reached school and she asked me wad time was it? (loking at watch) it's 7.27 and i am onli late for 2 mins..she say i dun care yada yada than she walk pass me and continue saying that doesn mean N's finish, u can come late...i walk and reply her I NOE.... haha! today we had 4 period of emaths!!!! can die!! i couldn open my eye and din like teach jol maths...i am so sorry jol...i guess i woke up at the wrong side of the bed and alsoi was really bother abt the zoo thingy... u shuld noe...than during recess we had a surprise instal for sheery since it was herbdae!! haha! she was so happy to see that we bought like CANDYSS and more candy liek the whole of the nike box werefull of candy!! i counln believe that she was so happy to see the candy than to see the dustbin(dustbin wif design) we thoughtthat she will like the dustbin more than candy! ahaha! than we took pix! and sing her bdae song! hha! zj and jol waskissing her? i dun noe wad this 2 ppl up to... than after school me and waty was doing some planning and talk to kill timeto wait for her tennis..haha!! i cannot wait..but i am scare la...shit la waty why muz u get me involve althought i want but i din say i want want...i am frikin scare!! than she went for tennis i meet up wif her...BUT! she was no where to be found!so i waited and was talking to devya and we talk i think abt 1hr..hah! i disturb her while she was studying for her bio! hahafinally u came and haha! good timing..i sit down again and talk talk! depressed of talking i guess..i noe ur deepest secrect!!why argh everyone in this world is makin me feel so sinful?? waty la! i ask her go watch movie and there she is asking me wether wanna go mosque and pray!!! waty!!!! why u like this to MEEEEE!!! i am a sinful person i noe but must u rub it in!!! why!!! u noe my ans yet u want to ask me!! ) ' : than wait for u to be odne wif ur studying and we went back ..... dam tired now!! i am lacking of sleep la!











thanks for the kiss..haha! i din expect u to give it u noe...but i was wondering wether any teachers saw it? cause we were facing the staff room!!!
haha! oh well ..i am gonaa miss u.... :p

I HAD MY DAY OFF WITH HONEY!! SO FUN!!!!





today went out wif honey...meet up at city hall mrt station.. was suppose to meet at 2pm but i was late as usual..i am so soorryyy..she had to wait for me for half an hr... not my fault ..mum wants me to buy her newspaper??? but when i reach there she will dispear??? so i had to wait for her too... than we made our way to C.A....haha! we were almost buying the whole place la.. suppose to get for someone's else but i ended up buying more things for myslef..haha! honey was like " u arh!!" than i put back some stuff..next time will be back for more...than we stayed there for 1hr before headed to town...went to far east.... to look for some stuff...but din get wad we wanted to buy... BUT i had a good LAUGH when i ask honey to buy ice-cram at this arab restaurant and and and SHE GOT PUNK! hahaha!! so funny!!! but the fun finishes so quickly... cause that uncle not spoting...than we took bus to heereen...decided to take a lift up... and when we entered there was a man..i personaly thought the lift was going up. it turn out that the man went to level B3 which mean the lift went down and we being dumb went out at the same level as we were... I LAUGH LA! ppl ard lookin at us.. than after heereen, we took bus to PS...went to spotlight...things there were expensive..than we walk ard and gt some stuff ..again things happen in ps...we wanted to go down by esclator...BUT we almost use the esclator which goes up...and i think the ppl who saw us laughed at us..dam la..so pai sei can today....than we headed home...we parted...i miss the fun ...BUT today u bring back the fun!!! thankz honey.... than meet up wif wanne darl and kak bedah for dinner..it has been so long since i meet up wif kak bedah... haha! well she seem to be unhappy over sumthing and din wanna TALK TO ME! humph! why she like dat to me.... i noe u noe so u better tell me...haha! than i headed home sweet home.....

must u be like this to me??

URGH!!URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH !!URGH!! UGRH!! UGRH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH !!URGH!!URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH !!URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH!! URGH !!URGH!! URGH!!








you stab me in the heart again and again

have u ever spare a thought for my feelings????

slept onli at 7 am...when ppl are all busy going to work, i was busy getting ready to sleep..mum and dad was schocked to see me still wide open wacthing dvd at 5am! they thought i left the light on for fun..chee! i was watching the longest yard...super funny...u ppl MUST watch .. i cannot stop laughing la...mum thought i was havin nightmare..that bad argh i laugh?? than woke up onli at 4pm! when everyone just got back from work....haha! how fun is this...i have been waiting to do this .... woke up din noe wad to do.. so decided to play POKEMON! yeppie! played form 4pm-6pm... kewl kewl..
i still need to collect 5 more badges...oh well i think its time for me to buy new games..have been playing that game say....5 times... BUT i simply LOVE THEM!! so CUTE!! than time for break my fast...food was kinda boring? haha! now on com...thats life for me from now on...i have got homework BUT not going to do till...i feel like doing it...lalala.... i thinkl 2nite gonna watch another movie...hmmm....






to u , i noe how u are feeling ryte now...and i noe u just want ur parents to understand u..and need more time to revise for ur Os...everything happens for a reason...just take the day off and start studying at nite... dun overstress urself and if u need me...u noe wad to do cause u have been doing it for the past 3 years....haha! just press those numbers.....










Life can be confusing.Too many people around wondering what you're doing when it's none of their buisness.Life can be loving. Loving that special someone & having them love you back. Life can be entertaining. Having all of your friends there for you whenever you need them. Life can mean death. Suicide, murder, whatever it may be. Just remember this: you only live once, so live it up.

hope u enjoy ur day....u ssim i

WORLD WAR 3 GOING TO HAPPEN TODAY!!! I HATE IT!!!!




was suppose to go to school today..but decided not to...at 6.15 mum woke me up..i say 5 more mins..than at 6.30 i told mum to give me another 5 mins even thou i got 10mins allowence..than at 6.45 i said wait wait...after length time...i said I AM NOT GOING TO SCHOOL...byebye gdnight...so continue wif my sleep...haha! slept at 1.30am woke up at 4pm....wondeerfulll...caught my beauty sleep....after which i was on computer till now....i am craving to watch movie...but everyone seems to be bz wif muggiing...and theirs plans...hiaz... waty make me feel that i am a sinful person..haha! well.... i am trying to be holy here...how encouraging...bored stiff now...

















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THE MOST EMBARRASSED DAY IN MY ENTIRE 16YRS OF LIFE!!!! FISH FISH FISH FISH FISH!!!!WANNA NOE WHY???? READ ON!!!!! FISH FISH FISH!!!







i have been awake for 15 hrs today cause i onli got to sleep at 4am?? woke up at 6.30am... and i cannot do much in school cause 3/4 of the time i was yawing and yawing... had chem for 1st period..and ms lee gave us our head start time tabel..and i was schocked to hear that they plan to finish O level sylabus by this yr cause they want to use next yr for practical..!twice a week?? i cannot wait!!! its has been a long time since i went in to those labs! than had mt..well din actually went to mt instead i meet up wif shaza and ita at the study area and took pix and talk talk...cause they din go 4 english at chapelhaha! lazy bumpers! than saw wane and she pass me thes frame..with our pixture! haha! so sweet...aww..but somehow she ispeeved with me today... i am sorry i broke it? haiz..some things cannot be control.. than had english...was suppose to do compre and was given 1 and a half hr ..after which i onli did 2 question? haha! than we and jo keep yawing...we took turns ok! and each time we will say " can u stop yawing' haha! so funny!than its time for farewell... and well ppl crynormal things happen..BUT I WILL BE COMING SCHOOL NEXT YR!! haha! than when wane saw me,she started crying! she couldn control?? yana was like " faiz wad did u do" i blur? than i say c'mon we can still meet up? but i am so sure i am gonna miss the whole bunch of U ...no longer can see u ppl 5 days a week... :'( than went to take pix ard... and waty wanted to walk me home? so yah we walk... both of us din talk..it was a quiet moment..from schhol gate allthe way to the traffic light..we din talk...i was feeling rather down... she too...for the obvious reason... and i neo someone is also but refuse to tell me..u dun cry infront of me w/o a reason u noe? we were laughing when suddenly u cry? i shall nt force u to tell me..when u r ready, u can talk abt it to me : D so took bus home... how i wish i went back with u....than mum was rushing me to be back cause i was suppoe to accompany her to the police station... haiz!she din even let me change?so i was with my polka dots from 7am-9.30pm urgh! dats the 1st part of embarrasement..than in the police stationi had to show my ic when i am nt the one involve..than was waiting for this inspector to come out...gosh! his taking forever!waited for half an hr... and i fall asleep on my mum's shoulder! and was schock when the police guy say " yah u come in"*false alarm* went bakc to zzzz.... later part i gt to noe wad taking so long is that we are waiting for my mum's friendcause she was also involve... and i hated her son! we use to play with each other when we were young but today we r like foe?he's onli 1 yr older than me BUT he drives a motor??? wanna act big? go away la..i dun give a dam cause all i noe ur mum was the one who bring this upon herself! so dun blame my mum??? and infact ur mum was the one who started all this crap?oh well waited for half an hr after which they onli being interview like less than 10 mins?? haiz! i am just glad things din go wrong..and my mum still have to go through a lie detector...for 3 hrs... and i need to accompany her..oh well.. seeingthe condition of my mum's fren, i think its time i staart to pray!! i am so scared!!! now..how mighty is god! ...than mum suggested to break our fast at gelyang...so yah we went...and i saw alot of ppl...being surrounded by hundreds of malaywhich i dun find comfortable seeing me in polka dots! than while i was listening to my songs, i spotted 2 malay bang!one was fu..handsome...can make it...the other was...u shuld noe wad to complete!...haha! than later i saw another malay bang well her gf was dam pretty! and that bang saw me and smile and i wonder why..after which i try to recall who she wasand i noe i have seen her somewhere b4..yup got it..that stc girl! we always meet in town! haha! dam la..she had a chiobu gf! apprently her gf is taller..but iTS THE LOVE men! than wanted to go home when my idiotic sis call and say " where r u guyz?? i reach already" HUHHUHHUH?? reach where? ahHHh u r comin here? why? i noe i am being mean but i wanna go hm and sleep! i cannot take the heat..is like super duper HOT! but i waited...and while waiting, i wentto buy the takopachi ball...and that man say wad stuffing u want ..faiz with her smile and say " i want 1 prawn,1 ocupus, 1 crabmeat and 1 chicken&cheese..mum was SHOCKED! haha! sorry but plzz pay mum... i thought i was sleepy? oh well FOOD IS FOR LIFE! than meet up wif sis and was thirsty and ask her to buy me choclate bleneded with pearls...i was waiting and somehow i see a gathering behind me...there he was aaron aziz.. the stupid actor! i din bother atfirst BUT! he came to me and INTERVIEW MEEEE!!! unexpectly ... I was scare to stiff! din noe wad he was akskin me??and i am so so embarassed already!!! with polka dots it make it even WORST!! mum and sis ran away !! i did! BUT!he chase MEEEEE!! AHHHHHHH i wanted to cry and shout?? but helo??? i am not a freako! so yah i have no choice but to prove my stupid and idiot attidue ever! so yah!! ahHHH after which i ran quickly...far form that place! and i think he's programme is tmr!!! i called waty at an instant...and she screm into the phone!! ur NOT HELPING ME ONE BIT!infact she say she's jelous of me??? than if tahts the case u be here and take over me LA! i SO CANNOT SLEEP NOW! SERIOUS!!! AHAAH!!! TOTALLY EMBARASSED!!! INFRONT OF THE CAMERA! THE CROWD!!! I MAKE A FOOL OUT OF MYSELF!! AM GOIN TO WAER MASK NOW!!! SHITSHIT SHIT!!! urgh!!! now i cannot even do any job cause i keep thinking abt this incident! ahhHH!!

tell u the truth i am really going to miss u.... i can no longer see u 5 times a week...not like before..and i hope it doesngo furthur than its has been... how i really wish u noe how i felt today... u din see me reacting in any ways..but to tell u the truth... i was crying so loud ; so loud that no one heard it nor i want to let anyone to hear it..except u...to noe my real feeling..i noe u will be thinking wad ever..but u noe such things cannot be control...it just happen...the whole day i wa sthinking abt u.... when will it be the day when u see my sincerity... ??


i am still waiting.....plzz....i could no longer hold it there...cause i really really.......

today was a great day..cause i went out.after so longgg.....wif zj and aud..haha! actually was suppose to go to boat quay and clark quay today wif sheery and zj...but sheery must go hm by 7pm? like wads there b4 7pm in boat quay and clark quay?? things onli get started at night?? so i told zj to tell sheery dat we shall go out next time...i feel bad thou..but oh well next time..than saw aud's msg to go out at 7 in the mornig...zj was laughing when i told her.. but yq had to complete her art and can onli meet us later but at last she had to vist her grandfather..so din meet up.. was waiting for 48 and god noes how long i waited...and finally i could not stand the heat and took cab..and went to fetch aud cause i dun wanna wait for any bus anymore..after all was kinda late cuase zj reach town, dun want to make her wait...driver was peeveed at cause i ask him to stop at places where not suppose to stop? i care? boo! than told the uncle to go to heereen bus stop but this aud told him to stop at heereen taxi stand but later she say why not we stopped at far east instead? i din wanna like tell the driver and all aud could do was just to laugh?? so yah i did the job by telling the driver...than aud say why nt we stop at TAKA! audddddd??? hello driver piss of already? still wanna change here and there?but we decided on far east cause zj was there already.. than while i was waiting for the driver to return me back my change, driver was nagging cause aud was just get out from the cab w/o looking for other cars at the back?? ayoo! than yah meet up wif zj and she just got mad cuase i wore a green collar shirt?? wad is ur problem dude! she say onli her idol can wear? than why wuld there be alot of green t-shirt being sell if its onli for 1 person?? haha! than we walk ard far east..i was searching for this shop cause to see how this owner looks like.. he made a few album; a rapper but din find.. cause i din quite noe wads the shop no. than aud told zj that she wnated to eat subway..and zj laugh like nobody business?? i seriously din see wad so funny..but oh well she is in her own world..than after far east we went to heereen..and aud say " eheh lets go in to this shop" so yah 2 of us went in..than after walking 1 round the shop aud say " eh this is not NIKE shop argh??? godness! aud there's this big sign saying ADDIDAS?? and u shuld noe by the design of the clothes?? ayyoo *bang la* than aud was looking for her stuff but to no avail..mine too...wad to buy arggh??than we went to cine...nothing much...still cannot find wad we are looking for..than while heading to somerset, meet up wif ash and hervin..haaha! they look alike la..and anu was giving me this look and till now i wanna noe wad she was thinking...than we say goodbye..and she whisper to me sumthin "................." --grins-- it was not clear... yah i remember our plans... so i cannot wait dude! than i went home wif aud... took cab...drop her off first and than to my hse...along the way i saw mama women goin home wif ....haha! if u read this u shuld noe who am i referrin to... they were very.... haha! nvm...than reach hm... and there i go no FOOD! haiz..i am still waiting for mum to finish cooking...she's taking forever....

i hope that i can spent my time with u more often like yadot ..i hope u can feel my love towards u everyday...cause i can prove it to u my sincerity. In my mind i just want to noe wad are u thinking when u are around me..i do want to noe...*ponders*

clock says , 1.18 am...THIS IS MY FIRST TIME CHANGING MY OWN BLOG SKIN
weeEEEE~ w/o the help of anyone.... okok jo help me onli 2%...haha! the rest was up to me! so proud of myself.... i can't wait for today.... more updates.... [ ", ]

i am back!!! wake up time!!! after sooooo longgggg and i feel so refresh!!! 3weeks of sleep...


i have gone through stressful life for the past 3weeks or so... here are my takes for all the papers

(1)Malay --->its was ok...aim for an A1
(2)Social studies---->tis paper was a serial killer!! hope to get at least B3
(3)english--->many ppl say it was easy, but to me..i find it rather difficult..so i juz pray i pass eng
(4)history--->this is another serial killer!wad i study din came out! dam it la! shuld nt have gamble..aim for B3 the least...
(5)emaths--->it was ok..so i am aim for an A1
(6)physics-->i think the paper is rather cheeky! aim for A2
(7)chemistry--->it was rather do-able but cheeky nontheless aim for A2
(8)amaths---->it was ok..just a couple for cheeky questions...so i hope i got an A1



in conclusion, no hope for humans... and i hope to pass english and 3 best subject will be malay, emaths and amaths.as for science i want it as a back up BUT hope i got A1 thou...did my best and hope it shows in the result....




besides all the studies....many other things happen... well to many to even list down and some are better left unsay....


right after amaths paper, meet wane and headed town.... how sweet she is to agree to accompanied me.... and bought sumthing for suaty's bdae..and still finding for some stuff...
while we were walking ard heereen and we went inside looneytunes..than was abt to go out when we saw a grp of young girls being question by 2 security guards...and the shop owner was there too..so me and wane watch the free show and evedrop..it happen that they stole sumthing and the guy ask one of the girl to call their frineds which happen to run away.. so later we saw 2 of their friends came..all in all abt 6 girls were involved and they are like sec 1 or p6?? seriously i wonder wad were they thinking?? tsk tsk...sad case.....than went ard town..and things din change one bit...so decided to head home sweet home....













i do think abt u everyday.... although u dun notice..maybe u do but u dun care.. i tell myself to let it go...but it seem that when i try to do so, i miss u more.... i will miss u badly soonnn....

I don't bite, I chew
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