Saturday, December 16, 2006
I just feel like being here now~
and talk to MYSELF.
moveBICTH
I was late in meeting them today. Yet again. Shuddup. Met them at tampiness mall and i said met at control station and i din lay a word sayin to meet at pizza hut. met waty at control station. Then met cikgu nora , haz and shuk at pizza hut. We r supposed to go cikgu house but later i found out that the reason why cikgu nora din want us to go there was because her house was in a mess and her house is full of things for her food shop mainly ONINOS so because of me she cange the venue. Faiz cannot smell oninons cause she will cry! as in i swear my tears will juz roll down, dun need to touch. Dat bad huh? and i felt guilty luhh.... We odered like a lot of food. Pizza! spegatee how ever u spell it , soup of the day, the drumsticks, and ala cart consisting calamari,prawn etc. BRUPP~ BUT servie was dam blarddy BAD! swear!
We talked about the future. O's. Results like how u think u fair/fare. like what each of us wanna take?persue in? those things where i am scared to say/dream about. i dun noe maybe is just me who doesn want to make my hopes up high. and i have really bad feelings as the days coming nearer. and thinking abt i could not make it to yah, it really crash 3/4 of my dreams/determination/encouragement already. I swear on this. :'(
Cikgu left. Hazlyn went to religious class and will meet us back later. Walked ard tampiness and i was being "boo" by suaty! :)))) She made me happy today cause LIKE FINALLY! SHE BRING GAMES FOR MEEEEE :)))) THANKS SUATY!
So after walking about, left suaty and proceed to cikgu noraidee's house :)) Big and simple house. A 3 storey house. So her 3rd child was outside and i kind off gave that kid the stare and stick out my tongue thrice after she din response to my countless hies! and SHE HATED ME FROM THEN! HAHAHH! urgh! kids! kids like thses=annoyance okie! Mingle ard. went ard her house. Watch cartoons and mostly NOT my favourable. BUT there's pokemon so it sums everything up. Then i went to fetch haz since i promised her along with cikgu's 1st and 2nd kid whom i mostly communicate with. HAH! And her 2nd kid loves to wispher nonsense things into my ear and even tell me about his sister (1st kid) life? errr...anws, Bring haz to cikgu's house and yes tea break cum dinner is served. Black pepper macroni and rojak. AND lots and lots of puffs! so okie i SIMPLY LOVE HER BLACK PEPPER MACRONI :)))) 4th kid is always smilling at us and more friendly. haha!
cikgu's neighbour is a russian and has 4 dogs. Those saussage kind? YES! and what is amazing is that this 4 dogs only listen to commands in RUSSIANS. So no wonder our SHUT UP din work! hahah! dam noisy please! and really dam annoying dogs! time to make a move. Cikgu drove us Eunos mrt station.
Met suaty at Eunos mrt station and all of us r heading to Bishan. We actually missed our stop and had to go back? when we are all late? HAH! i feel so dam pai sei cause haz was just shouting luhh. urgh~ hahah! We reach nadiah's house. Fadhilah who was supposed to come never did come and OMG! DON U HAVE A COURTSEY TO CALL OR SOMETHING! $%*^%#$&%$& Call luhh! and say that u cannot make it or whatsoever. DUn keep us waiting and calling! I am doing my part by inviting u , and dun be irritating luhh! urgh~
Finally we reached her house. And when her sis come to greet us i somewhat said " shit" and suaty heard me. sigh~ I soliloquised . They look alike! my heart crash okie. serious. But anyway, went in. make ourselves feels comfortable and untill today i just realised it has been awhile since i last saw them! They look more merrier and i am elated to see them in that state. Arina also. she can laugh, which is good. And not forgetting! i miss disturbing kak hajah and i got disturbed twice as much. I really miss nadiah's sister! her joke! The one that NEVER fail to make me laugh! :)) So her mum cook chicken rice for us and lots of others. This time is supper :)) After food, haz and shuk left. Leaving waty, suaty and me. This time, we all were engaging in a talk. And kak hajah going to date me for club! haha! Nadiah's mum and aunty was there too. We talked , joked and laugh! i felt happy . really! really really elated. so until at the last minute, when her mum said,
" here r some soft toys used to own by nadiah and if u all want, u can take it. We r giving this to u. I am only giving to her close friends but if u dun wish to take it cause u will feel scared or have superstitious, its okie, i will not feel bad or anything."
I swear at this moment, my heart just froze and i really wanted to cry. BUt of course, i control. Our eyes were watery. But i know all of us fight on. I got a soft toy that could make cute squeezy sound. That shuld remind me of u na do dei. :'(
At 11 pm we all ask permission to leave. Waty went home while suaty and i went to town. In the bus , suaty and me started to talk about the on goings in nadiah's house just now. And made a pack that next month we shuld go visit them again. realli. i never want to lost this bridge of relationship with them. This r some things that i will try to keep it going and treasure it.
And something about the convo in the bus that really touch my heart.
suat " no one call me except uncle except nadiah"
me " yes i know, and no one call me fai zo zei except nadiah"
:'(
bottomline : i really do miss her wholeheartly .
-shudder-
Anws, we reach town. AND at 11.30pm town was jam pack! wth! hahah! and we played piching game! haha! talked abt commitment. wow~ a broad defination huh?
Went to giraffe. AND WOW! that guy what is his name suat? hervandan? remembers me HAHA! he is funny! but i want to see kristen cause i want to see his tag once again! haha! left giraffe for home.
What a day huh? BUt oevrall , the last house just sums it all ! really. i am delighted to be there. to be able to joke with them~ If onli it was still in the day time, we wuld have a lot more ..
currently sending 1 movie to sabby tabby who happen to LEAVE ME HERE :((((
WOW~ sabBY! i think i will have to take another 5 more hrs to be done and i am expecting a call from yappy BUT she is so sleeping on me! not bad!
i'm feeling all bleak. Another emo-ish night huh?
i sort my thoughts out and .....................................
i dun noe what words to fit in.
but what ever it is,
it sucks.
PAUSE.
dun bother guessing cause non of u can get it right cause i dun noe what i am blabbering about. I am talking to myself. shuddup!
i feel like restarting my life BUT still keep those things and selected people around.
ouh wells, i shall go play some game!
---------------------BYE LA
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