Thursday, December 01, 2005
did not get into bed till 11.30 am after watching looney tunes... dad thought i was rather crazy...i personally think i am suffering from sleeping problem...is a sickness where my brain is really active in the night and less activate in the day...thats why i will feel asleep durin the day...i juz couldn sleep...any help anyone? i need sumthin to cure.. my sis told not to sleep for 2 days and by the 3rd day sleep early? helo! i juz say i will fall asleep in the day how one earth will i not sleep for two days? crazy...exams are over but i still cannot sleep early...i think my body has gotten use to the late sleep...but its getting worst...advise? well my day went fine... all i did is eat and watch tv... lovely...today got alot of wind so nice....lovely.... mum took the day off today..and she cook a feast...thats the nice part of mums when they dun work excludin all the yacking la....thats all my life now...
u call to appoligise..and i really dun noe wether to still be angry or juz forgive and forget...i really wanna forget and i noe i can but the wounds are still there...u took 4 days to pick up that phone and dial my number.. my heart still says wad u did is juz unthinkable...i mean u noe it for 2 mths..and u still keep me in da dark..but since u dun wanna tell...i respect that...and juz keep all the explanation to urself.... i dun noe wether i still want to open my door to u like i use to or let u noe wads happening to my world...i'm sorry but it juz takes time...not once ; not twice but more than thrice...i really dun bother if u dun wanna tell me..but is juz that ppl will come askin me this and that and i am always caught off guard...i look like a fool ok....and i hate that..hate to be in that spot.. u shuld noe how it feels..i can be mean and let u taste ur own medicine..to think u r my fren....i shall juz swollow all that..for now i shall let nature takes its own course :'(