Thursday, October 13, 2005
THE MOST EMBARRASSED DAY IN MY ENTIRE 16YRS OF LIFE!!!! FISH FISH FISH FISH FISH!!!!WANNA NOE WHY???? READ ON!!!!! FISH FISH FISH!!!
i have been awake for 15 hrs today cause i onli got to sleep at 4am?? woke up at 6.30am... and i cannot do much in school cause 3/4 of the time i was yawing and yawing... had chem for 1st period..and ms lee gave us our head start time tabel..and i was schocked to hear that they plan to finish O level sylabus by this yr cause they want to use next yr for practical..!twice a week?? i cannot wait!!! its has been a long time since i went in to those labs! than had mt..well din actually went to mt instead i meet up wif shaza and ita at the study area and took pix and talk talk...cause they din go 4 english at chapelhaha! lazy bumpers! than saw wane and she pass me thes frame..with our pixture! haha! so sweet...aww..but somehow she ispeeved with me today... i am sorry i broke it? haiz..some things cannot be control.. than had english...was suppose to do compre and was given 1 and a half hr ..after which i onli did 2 question? haha! than we and jo keep yawing...we took turns ok! and each time we will say " can u stop yawing' haha! so funny!than its time for farewell... and well ppl crynormal things happen..BUT I WILL BE COMING SCHOOL NEXT YR!! haha! than when wane saw me,she started crying! she couldn control?? yana was like " faiz wad did u do" i blur? than i say c'mon we can still meet up? but i am so sure i am gonna miss the whole bunch of U ...no longer can see u ppl 5 days a week... :'( than went to take pix ard... and waty wanted to walk me home? so yah we walk... both of us din talk..it was a quiet moment..from schhol gate allthe way to the traffic light..we din talk...i was feeling rather down... she too...for the obvious reason... and i neo someone is also but refuse to tell me..u dun cry infront of me w/o a reason u noe? we were laughing when suddenly u cry? i shall nt force u to tell me..when u r ready, u can talk abt it to me : D so took bus home... how i wish i went back with u....than mum was rushing me to be back cause i was suppoe to accompany her to the police station... haiz!she din even let me change?so i was with my polka dots from 7am-9.30pm urgh! dats the 1st part of embarrasement..than in the police stationi had to show my ic when i am nt the one involve..than was waiting for this inspector to come out...gosh! his taking forever!waited for half an hr... and i fall asleep on my mum's shoulder! and was schock when the police guy say " yah u come in"*false alarm* went bakc to zzzz.... later part i gt to noe wad taking so long is that we are waiting for my mum's friendcause she was also involve... and i hated her son! we use to play with each other when we were young but today we r like foe?he's onli 1 yr older than me BUT he drives a motor??? wanna act big? go away la..i dun give a dam cause all i noe ur mum was the one who bring this upon herself! so dun blame my mum??? and infact ur mum was the one who started all this crap?oh well waited for half an hr after which they onli being interview like less than 10 mins?? haiz! i am just glad things din go wrong..and my mum still have to go through a lie detector...for 3 hrs... and i need to accompany her..oh well.. seeingthe condition of my mum's fren, i think its time i staart to pray!! i am so scared!!! now..how mighty is god! ...than mum suggested to break our fast at gelyang...so yah we went...and i saw alot of ppl...being surrounded by hundreds of malaywhich i dun find comfortable seeing me in polka dots! than while i was listening to my songs, i spotted 2 malay bang!one was fu..handsome...can make it...the other was...u shuld noe wad to complete!...haha! than later i saw another malay bang well her gf was dam pretty! and that bang saw me and smile and i wonder why..after which i try to recall who she wasand i noe i have seen her somewhere b4..yup got it..that stc girl! we always meet in town! haha! dam la..she had a chiobu gf! apprently her gf is taller..but iTS THE LOVE men! than wanted to go home when my idiotic sis call and say " where r u guyz?? i reach already" HUHHUHHUH?? reach where? ahHHh u r comin here? why? i noe i am being mean but i wanna go hm and sleep! i cannot take the heat..is like super duper HOT! but i waited...and while waiting, i wentto buy the takopachi ball...and that man say wad stuffing u want ..faiz with her smile and say " i want 1 prawn,1 ocupus, 1 crabmeat and 1 chicken&cheese..mum was SHOCKED! haha! sorry but plzz pay mum... i thought i was sleepy? oh well FOOD IS FOR LIFE! than meet up wif sis and was thirsty and ask her to buy me choclate bleneded with pearls...i was waiting and somehow i see a gathering behind me...there he was aaron aziz.. the stupid actor! i din bother atfirst BUT! he came to me and INTERVIEW MEEEE!!! unexpectly ... I was scare to stiff! din noe wad he was akskin me??and i am so so embarassed already!!! with polka dots it make it even WORST!! mum and sis ran away !! i did! BUT!he chase MEEEEE!! AHHHHHHH i wanted to cry and shout?? but helo??? i am not a freako! so yah i have no choice but to prove my stupid and idiot attidue ever! so yah!! ahHHH after which i ran quickly...far form that place! and i think he's programme is tmr!!! i called waty at an instant...and she screm into the phone!! ur NOT HELPING ME ONE BIT!infact she say she's jelous of me??? than if tahts the case u be here and take over me LA! i SO CANNOT SLEEP NOW! SERIOUS!!! AHAAH!!! TOTALLY EMBARASSED!!! INFRONT OF THE CAMERA! THE CROWD!!! I MAKE A FOOL OUT OF MYSELF!! AM GOIN TO WAER MASK NOW!!! SHITSHIT SHIT!!! urgh!!! now i cannot even do any job cause i keep thinking abt this incident! ahhHH!!
tell u the truth i am really going to miss u.... i can no longer see u 5 times a week...not like before..and i hope it doesngo furthur than its has been... how i really wish u noe how i felt today... u din see me reacting in any ways..but to tell u the truth... i was crying so loud ; so loud that no one heard it nor i want to let anyone to hear it..except u...to noe my real feeling..i noe u will be thinking wad ever..but u noe such things cannot be control...it just happen...the whole day i wa sthinking abt u.... when will it be the day when u see my sincerity... ??
i am still waiting.....plzz....i could no longer hold it there...cause i really really.......