Saturday, August 27, 2005
today was the day i try to free myself... free from what has happened last 5 days.... i dun even want to think wad i dun intend to think... was doing my hair which i took 15 mins... and suddenly got a call from auddya askin me to save her...haha! she being a lamppost there cause XX was with monkey... haha! than after they eat went to far east to wait for two more personso longg and aud keep complaining... than as soon as we get our things we went home...on the way hm meet cui shan.. hah! BUT i din wanna go so i headed back to town wif dahlink.... luckly i went cause there was so many performances going on... hip hop... dancing like shit la but since i like thesongs so it was ok la... than wanna go to hereen than me and dalink saw a 6yr old boy playing DRUMS!!! repeat DRUMS!!i felt so so so JEALOUS~!!!!!! i want to play tooo... and dat boy has hearing impact... so pity...but yet he is talanted..than when i watched him play for less than 5 mins, his perfromances finish already... wah liao! so me and dahlink went to hereen..haha! she will go in every single shop...ahhhHH she make my leg numb can.. but oh well on account she goes town wif me i shall be good to her.... than saw nadiah in town...wanted to close her eyse but miss it infact she screem LA! wah so pai sei can..i was liek oi no need to schout la... than she said byebye.. and give me those funny grins... hmmm wonder wad?than after herreen went to wisma check out the prices for STOMP! haha!! i just pray someone will want to go with me?sheereen please say u wanna go... i am counting on u..than had dinner with dahlink..so kewl she has discount card...so yahgot discount...and than we made our way home...haha! today dahlink was nice to me... actualy extra nice..wonder why?? haha!! i am lovin it.... but than someone just seem so not enjoying my companion.... dun noe why??
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.... ONE WEEK I STAND U, UR FUCKIN ATTIDUE , UR FUCKIN IGNORANCE .... AND I SWEAR I CANNOT STAND IT ANY LONGER.... wad in the world are u tryingto prove? i swear to go u have change? change for the WORST! i repeat WORST! i am just fuck up! i swear i talk to ghost better than talking to you... ghost at leats gives respone?? I AM SO SO SO DISAPPOINTED in u? lying to me?? have u ever consider ny feelings? ever trying to understand me? u ur own said that u felt bad cause u dun noe me andi noe u very well... than why u din so sumthin abt it? why ? wad the hell are u waiting for?? i am pouring all my thoughtsi swear i cannot take this anymore...if u meant to keep ur doings in the dark???? think again??? i have frens ard me??they will come to me and tell me ??? u noe i was like a dumb shit when they tell me stuff in which i myself do not know??u noe how i felt and that very moment? wad a fren am i??? they even same " huh?? u mean u dun even noe " f off la!!!have u ever consider my feelings?? dun forget that u bitch abt me once and i noe abt it!! cause u bitch abt me to the wrong personshit! sometimes i wonder why i noe u?? why i even get closer to u?? why i even go to smss??? why i even say helo to u?? if this keep going on... dun blame me for my next actions??? u shuld boe me by now that i can onli entertain ppl to a certain level.. so liek i say dun balme me if i get nasty...and i noe u noe dat i can do it.. urgh!!!!! URH!!! wad is ur motive???wad r u trying to prove?? until today wad others said perturb me so much?? i also dun noe why am i feeling angry at u??why?? cause u r being such a jerk LA! dun be DUMB! and think dat i dun noe anything!!! cause the fact is i noe wads goinon and i am mad abt it!!! if u want our friednship at stake u better do sumthing!! i am being very patiance here..and itsdun test me....F OFF!