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Friday, August 19, 2005

i miss my computer.. it has been like 1 week since i last bloggin... 1 week of nightmare... prelims was YUCKS!!! god! my tution and me was having this talk saying that why my school set prelims so difficult?? than i answer back : to make thestudents study even harder forN's level... look at it, if u study like mad for this particular subject..than when u do the paper,and non of the question commit to memory?? u will tend to feel " if i noe i do need to study, cause i will have the same marks"i juz nodded... well alot of things happen within this one week...

Firstly, amaths prelims... well to be honest i did not do 30 marks question.both in paper 1 and paper2 i feel so dumb... why cause no time... i feel so dumb ok after thatpaper...ss and hist was like shit... must they set the questions to be so chim...?? and chem was another shitified paper...i should not have underestimed the paper... all Ms lee care to ask is when this chemical react wif this chemical was gasdoes it produce... when that mixture is mix wif this mixture was gas does it produce?? is she deprived of gases?? MALAY!!my teacher said that my compo went out of point and my letter writting was so RUDE! i look at her and just walk away....ENGLISH! heard that we make a lot of careless mistakes? hmmm...even tawee said that i will fail my prelims.. now i noewhere she heading tooo... FKUC!!! all din go my WAY!! why why why.... i noe i do alot of sin god..but ... i think i shuld start to pray now....

Secondly.... to shaza: plz get well ok... hope u will not have any migrains when u are doing ur prelims and O level... wish u all the luck for this yr To whoever it may concerns...: i hope that wad decision u take will lead u to a better future... i noe it will be hard to get over it but life still has to continue... no matter wad is ur decision is... i will give u my support from all directions..hehe... and wadhappens in the pass juz take it as a history in ur life... and move on...

Thirdly : on my part, i think ppl are observing me from far.... well guess wads new... when ever i lent a helping hand to anyppl in SMSS ppl think that i like that person in a more than friend????? OH MY GOD!! u ppl have nothing better to doargh?? u mean i shuld be heartless to everyone ard me and when ppl ask for help i sjuld juz say NO??? c'mon la than why not u do it dat way??? thats human for me... well i noe who is itzzit already...and why muz u lie to me??/ i mean u noe dat i noe the truth... why not u juz come clear?? ur good friend told me xome stuff about wad i wanna noe.... and well now i noewhy u dun wanna let me see the picture?? too bad u r juz to dumb ..i saw it.... again i wonder why? why muz u act this way?u say i dun reply ur msges, dun reply to ur question when ever u talk to me.... well not onli me?? itz u tooo.... i think u play the more big role...so next time when u point the finger to me...think abt ur actions?? u get jealous when u read my msg? utend to think things far... for a start i din say u can read my msg?? so when i wanna do the same thing u dun let? why ??apprently ur gd friend say u dun wanna hurt my feelings??? dun wanna show the pix wif the same reason?? i think itskinda crap u noe...since when will i be hearbroken if i see wad u mean.... why wuld i?? and why i get to noe that some unexpectedguess will noe abt things i never felt?? why?? and if this is the case why u din bother to reply my msg or give me an explanation for ur actions... i wonder wad are u trying to prove??? i am CONFUSED!!

i flew away@ 8:15 PM